Extremities. When you really think about it, that does sum us up…No? I mean, lets pause and actually think about it. When we party…we go wild. When we get down to serious studying, we live in the library or our rooms (whatever works for you). When we travel, it HAS to be the most exotic of locations and then there are the days when we built a blanket fort in our rooms and just watch netflix all day long. When we make new friends, we go all out for them and when we hate them, it runs deeper than the fires of hell. When we love, its unlike anything we have ever experienced and when we hurt… well lets just say Sam Smith and Adele really have it down for us. Moderation doesn’t exactly work for us. We have life figured out on some days but on most we are fumbling around for words to describe our feelings. But here’s the news. WE LOVE IT.
Yes, we are what some might called confused but we are not lost. We might not know where life is taking us, but we sure as hell aren’t afraid to find out. Yes, we are scared out of our minds but never once are any of us afraid to take risks. Like the last blog (which was ages ago ) this one was inspired by a conversation with friends too. One of our friends was complaining about how her parents don’t take her seriously and they still expect her to be an adult and make decisions. How do you expect us to take a stand when you don’t even trust us to make the right call?
We are listening. We do understand. We care. But that does under no circumstances mean that we will always do what we are told to, simply because we are told to do so.
We think. We debate. We draw conclusions. But that doesn’t indicate disrespect or immaturity.
We are not scared to make mistakes. In fact we want to make them. Loads of them. We are also not closed to advice. But that’s all they are, and its up to us to take them. Again, we ARE listening but we CAN think. It’s just frustrating when everyone around us wants to know our grand plans for the rest of our lives which we are expected to make in a span of a couple of years in the middle of raging hormones and figuring our poor selves out. It’s overwhelming and honestly, we are tired of all the weight we carry around. I mean we are just in our 20s!! It’s hard enough to do the whole conventional adult thing when everyone tells us how we are all a bunch of Jon Snows (“you know nothing Jon Snow” I can’t believe there are still people out there who didn’t get this). Here’s the thing though, we know what we are doing, we just have our way of doing it. Be it our education, our careers, our relationships, everything. The last thing any of us want to do is be ordinary and believe me none of us are. Snowflakes.
Let’s get personal for a bit. I want to make it big okay. I really want the whole house with two dogs and a swimming pool compete with two cars future thing. And I WILL get there. I just want some time to figure out the kind of person I want to be when I am playing in my swimming pool with my two dogs. If I don’t figure out who that person is then I am just going to be driving alone in my car trying to figure that very thing out with two neglected dogs in my very big house. Who likes a person neglecting dogs?!! Who wants to be that person?! A few years ago I didn’t even know I had all this figuring out to do, I though I had my whole life mapped out. Why is it that everything needs to happen all at once at this horribly rapid pace with a time bomb ticking right next to me?? Who the hell put the ticking time bomb there in the first place???
People have the timelines a little wrong. Teenagers are not exactly having an existential crisis anymore. Hell! They are just happy to be all grown up ! which by the way they are entirely entitled to. Its right after that, when you really need to break your life down. It’s in your 20s you NEED to start knowing yourself. Be your own bestfriend. Trust me when I tell you, you’ve changed when you made that jump from 19 to 20. You have become this whole new person, not because “its time” but because everyone else around you thinks “its time”. You need to learn yourself again and where you stand. Look at the mirror and actually know the eyes looking back at you. Know what builds you up and what exactly breaks you down, what your morals are and just how much you are willing to bend them…all this without that reflection changing. It’s scary stuff! But again, we are not scared enough to not take risks. Just because we make mistakes doesn’t mean we can’t ever fix them or learn from them. We know that reflection needs to be true to us.
All that plus figuring out our whole lives?!
We might not be old enough to know just what the answer to the ‘ultimate question’ is yet but we are old enough to acknowledge the fact that the question does exist. We are asking the world to acknowledge that.
We might not be old enough to judge what we want and what we need but we are old enough to know what we have and how best we can work with that. Don’t take that away from us.
We might not be old enough to know who we are, but we are old enough to know that we are all works in progress. Let us work it out for ourselves.
We might be too young to never be “old enough” but we are not too young to ask for these things.